My step mom came out so good out of her surgery. She has Parkinsons disease and had an electrical transmiter put in her brain. All of us in the family were so worried but thank god she is doing better than OK. The beautiful woman is dancing again and being her old silly self. Before the operation she had almost lost all control of her arms and legs. Maybe there is a god? Well if you're there I thank you for giving Bimba back her body.I think about moments like these and know there is a bigger purpose than suffering. While Bimba was going through all of her pain (past 10 yrs.) I almost lost all faith in god. Why would he bring this on to a great and giving person? I've lost a few other loved ones in the resent past and ask the same? I'm not god, but could god carry a rock bigger than himself? I doubt it.....
I feel really pathetic at the moment, I joined catster and created a profile for my cat. It's actually kind of humorus and I can talk about my cat in there with people that actually care to listen. Honestly most people don't care to listen to stories about my cat, unless they have a cat also.I went to the mall with my son yesterday to do some Christmas shopping; we are at the last minute getting the packages to the States on time. I was walking from store to store and kept hearing all these old classic Christmas songs and it makes me sad. Christmas time brings up painfull memories for me, especially if I hear a song that is connected to the bad memories. I managed to ignore it until I heard these young girls singing together and they were so happy. I found an ATM machine and turned my back to my son to hide the fact that I was breaking down in public and crying. Anyway, I had a few more gifts to take care of today and decided to go to this small town outside of Reykjavik and shop in a family run gift store. I hate malls, loud Christmas music and people rushing around me when I shop for a loved one. It was wonderful to shop in the little mom and pops store and the service was great.I think that there is a solution to all of our discomforts, we just have to make a new road/path that makes us feel comfortable in life.
My grandfather passed away 8 days ago. His funeral was yesterday and I feel so blank. I couldn't cry I just felt frozen and empty inside. He was such a kind and hard working man. I love this picture of him, I took it 2 or 3 years ago and he was so happy that day. This is how I want to remember him always.
