Sitting here in my Betty Boop pajamas at 2:00 in the afternoon

I'm sitting here in my Betty Boop pajamas at 2:00 in the afternoon on a friday, life is great. I have a day off at work every other friday. My son went to school this morning and I've just been laying around and reading. I appreciate being alone at times and getting some time to think. When I get times to myself there is no cleaning allowed or work, just spoil myself and do something I've been putting off for a while.

My friend Sara doesn't have a car and needs a ride to the mall tomorrow, I hate the mall really hate it, but I'm willing to go in there for her. What are friends for. My son has a big social life now on weekends and I am going to be alone tomorrow night with no responsibilites, I have to come up with some ideas on what I can do?

I have the damn Greyhounds running for you

It's been a long day and I want a cold Heineken right now ;-) It would fit perfectly with the couch and pajamas. I was fixing up my website this weekend and I'm dealing with a bad case of perfectionism, it sucks not being able to feel satisfied with ones work. I tried to get my mind of it and started doing some thing completely different, posted some silly Bulletins on here and research some information on webdesign color pallets. I'm worried about my friend Pig Alloy, he's been depressed and getting into Alister Crowley tarrot cards; maybe he's just messing with us but I keep worrying about him. I've known him since '99 and I've never seen him act this strange. So if you read this Alloy, remember I have the damn Greyhounds running for you and I've even made pigs fly.

Enemies are so stimulating

Enemies are so stimulating.
- Katharine Hepburn

This is so true; I don't mind the fact that people hate me or dislike me, I only mind it when they manage to get me down. In a way being hated is very stimulating, there must be some thing about me that is worth the envy and time they are putting into hating me. I will enjoy the attention and keep on going my own way. If my independence and success piss you off, too bad I worked my ass off to get to where I'm today and have earned all the good I have in my life.

The winds have gone up to 70 mph

The winds have gone up to 70 mph and it's getting dark and cold. I love my country but when the weather gets like this I want to go far away to a warm tropical place. I was driving to work this morning and I could swear it felt like my car was going to flip off the road. It's good to get a blanket and hot chocolate and read a good book on days like this; it kind of makes the storm outside a bit romantic.

in Amsterdam drinking coffee

I can't be damaged......................Many have tried and many may try in the future but I can't be undone if I hold onto my belief in the goodness in life. Hurt me as you will but it won't damage me because I won't let your negative force into my life. I see the future and even the now and it's so bright and happy, I hear the birds singing and look at the sun; things couldn't be better than this.

Tony and Jolene want to meet me in Amsterdam; I see myself drinking coffee and enjoying the sun, many good people around me with the Agent finally getting me to enjoy the Fun ;-)

If I do meet the midget I'll give him a hug and thank him for believing in me when I felt so small and alone.

My thought on responsibility

The best years of your life are the ones in which you decide your problems are your own. You do not blame them on your mother, the ecology or the president. You realize that you control your own destiny. - Albert Ellis

As I've mentioned here before I forgave some one from my childhood recently and felt so much relief. Following that I have started going through my resentments and realize that all of my problems in life are my responsibility. I may not deserve some of the things that have happened in my past but I take full responsibility for how I deal with them today. Every end result of a situation I go through depends on how I deal with it. I feel so much relief and I know that the best years of my life have just begun. Waking up in the morning with a clear mind and no anger or resentments is wonderful.

Thought for Today

For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin--real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life.
-Alfred D. Souza

I experience this feeling alot, like my life will begin as soon as I'm done doing this or that. I look back at my life and it seems like I always let the obstacles blind me, like I can't look at the forest because the trees are in my way. I am at a point now where I am trying to stop dwelling on all the problems and just go through them, thinking about them won't make them disappear.I've been very busy at work and my daily routine is actually alot of fun if I remember to sleep well and appreciate the little things that I forget when I start worrying about some thing that can be solved anyway. Yes life is alot of work but I am going to go through it with a positive attitute.

What makes life beautiful?

I'm thinking about all the great things in life that make it so beautiful and worth living. I get depressed sometimes and have learned that the best way out of depression is to count your blessings, it's kind of like positive conditioning and it usually works.

-I know that when I wake up feeling down and hopeless it's just a moment in life that passes by, the only way is up some times.

-I have had so many life experiences that most people will only dream of.

-I have had the pleasure of having a few great friends that mean the world to me because they have given me what I needed when I felt like life had given up on me.

-I gave birth to the most beautiful child when I was 20 yrs. old and have had the opportunity to raise him on my own with good results, he's the kindest and smartest person I've met in this life.

-I live in a country where people don't have to worry about getting fed or proper medical attention, there is no real poverty in Iceland.

-I can feel and see the sun when I wake up in the morning and hear the beautiful birds singing by my window.

-when I feel all alone and cry on my pillow I have a wonderful cat that licks my tears away and listens with out judging; by the way I know he's the Buddha.