My dream of selling everything and becoming a farmer in New Zealand!

God I'm counting down the days to my vacation, and having such a hard time being at work; 2 more days left! I'm packing all my stuff in my car leaving the city and going to stay in the country for a whole week with loved ones. My son Tyler, brother Jon, friend Klara and her son Mani are going to join me and I can't wait. Offcourse I will be doing a little work with Klara, buts it's fun stuff we haven't had time to get started until now. I think I might be a Workaholic or what?And that takes me back to my dream of selling everything and becoming a farmer in New Zealand! I can't stand the 8-5 workday in the city, I have a dream of being out in nature and being my own boss.For those of you that I planned to meet in NY, I will e-mail my mobile .. that I'll be using when I get there. Can't wait to see everyone!

Humility has worn me out

The pain is sweet burning deep down in my heart,my soul is left with empty little holes. Forgiving is easy but forgetting can't be done, the wound keeps on bleeding and spreading it's pain. I stand here and imagine what happiness is and maybe that would make it worth while? People are happy for no reason at all? I'm only happy when I've worn myself out and sit down at night and try to pass out,,, nothing to remember then I forget how to feel..............................and wake up in the morning with humility and worn out.

Repeat the next day

Like the birds outside singing in the morning

I woke up in a good mood today and petted my cat for 30 minutes; I love waking up at five in the morning, drink some strong coffee and listen to the birds outside welcoming the new day. I always imagine if we would take those birds as role models and welcome the day singing early in the morning; imagine how it would be stuck in morning traffic and everyone would be singing or just happy? Or if all of us would go out of our way to reallly ask someone how they've been and really listen when they answer? I think the little things in this life are what matters and make this World beautiful but I realize as I sit here and drink my strong coffee that while I'm running around in my daily rush I totally ignore those little things, like the birds outside singing in the morning.