Happy New Years!

I'm looking forward to tonight, my son and I just bought $90 worth of fireworks and we're going to shoot up alot. Iceland is a great place to be on New Years Eve, most people buy fireworks and have a great time.

I wish I were at a bar with Pig Alloy at the moment

Current mood: depressed

I'm working alot at the moment and feel overwhelmed and an urge to sink into the good old place of self-pity? Why don't we humans see how good we have it, I've come a long way baby and I can't forget that as long as I live. My life today is nothing that I dared dream of when I was younger, I have rights and comforts that most of the women of this World don't even know about. I fought my way out of a destructive life and came out so much stronger. Hey it's Christmas and it's making me all weird, today I have the gift of making new and great memories........................ Yes I will get over this depressive episode and fix something that needs fixing inside of me!

I love you grandma, you will always own a big piece of my heart

Today is a day to remember the good we have and the good people that we have lost in life. I got emotional today and started missing my grandmother, she spoiled me to death around Christmas and I feel so much emptiness since she passed away. I remember her like I just saw her yesterday and the sound of her voice and smell of her cooking echoes in my mind. I tried to make a home cooked meal like grandma used to, everything from scratch; I felt her in my heart as I almost burned the potatoes but her voice telling me to lower the heat and add more butter. I love you grandma, you will always own a big piece of my heart .

Rambling 121304

I can't fall asleep and it's like 1:30 in the morning. I went to my dad's for dinner and drank too much coffee even though I've gotta be up around 6:00 in the morning. I fall so easily to temptations even when I know they're bad for me. So I'm going to mope around and read some more books and hopefully I'll get to sleep soon ;-(

ARRGHH, I want the sun!

I've been so busy preparing for Christmas. I think I got carried away this year, I painted my living room and couldn't resist doing my hallway also. I'm enjoying this and that is what counts, I always manage to keep myself busy in the dark winter months.

It's been dark and raining for almost a week now, ARRGH I want the sun! My friend in the States ask me how I can stand this, sometimes it does become unbearable, especially if there's no snow to light up the environment.

Gotta get back to painting the apartment .

I have to put my little cat to sleep

I'm feeling really down today because I have to put my little cat to sleep. She was starting to attack people and cried all night. I guess insanity exists in cats also, she hasn't felt good or been herself for a long time now. I'm going home and I will spend some time with her before I bring her to the vets.