Self-pity moved in and almost took over the place

It's been so dark and I've been bitching up a storm and embracing self-pity. Yes self-pity moved in and almost took over the place, before I know it I'm struggling to get up in the morning because I've got her as an excuise. Anyway I woke up and smelled the coffee today! I was baking for my son's birthday and realized how good I've got it and I should feel shame when I complain. Life is a struggle for all of us but I've come a long way and should never resort to old ways of ripping myself down to nothing. I have it good and you don't know how good you've got it until you've gotten out of a struggle.

Yes this is my thought for today and I love the fact that I can blogg this stuff without anyone censoring or threatening me.

Yes, I've got it good.

Depression Episode # 897

I'm getting another depression episode and basicly because I have so many responsibilities the next 3 months. I become paralyzed with worries and accomplish alot less than when I'm feeling normal. I just read this quote:

"Concern should drive us into action and not into depression."
- Karen Horney


I am going to try and keep up the action to avoid the depression. The weather here has also been so bad and it's been so dark, thank god I'm going to the States in a few weeks, I'll get a little sunshine to nourish my brain.