Brain Storming about sex and other good stuff in the middle of the night

I can't fall asleep tonight and I have to be at work in the morning. I came back from the States on sunday and still haven't gotten used to the time difference, having a bunch of friends dropping by hasn't helped me get to bed early either.My good old friend Pig Alloy described me as hot and sweaty in a bikin today and it got me thinking about the difference between men and women; men are in a way too easy and way to visual (not offending your comment Alloy, it flattered me very much). I have gotten to a point in my life where it takes alot more than nice talk and good sex to keep me interested in a man; it's actually a very good place to be at. I actually like the brains and ambitions in a man just as much as the looks and sex; if not even more when it comes to long term relationships. Then I've had some bad luck lately and it has made me realize that I don't follow my heart or have the guts to go out there and hit on this kind of a man, I always let them pick me and usually it ends up me being in the role of trying to save their crazy life???? Duuhh what's wrong with this picture?

I had a really beautiful dream last night and the man in the dream was someone I had picked out and we ended up holding each other, very realistic and happy kind of a dream; woke up smiling. My three year plan is going to include that, go out there and hit on the next guy that turns me on; not wait for him to notice me. Yes I do have a three year plan and I think it's the smartest thing I've done since I applied for a job without my Dr. Martin boots on.

It's like three in the morning now and I have an important job interview at work tomorrow, I better get some sleep and get this promotion.................................